duped again

woke up suddenly in the middle of the night with a very clear thought out of nowhere: "You have been duped again!" and then came a flow of little twists of things that were said, or not said, or seen, or not seen, that showed me quite clearly, without any effort of my own, that indeed, madeh, is just out to make a quick buck.....and what a better opportunity that from a single woman sitting at a resort on the beach for a few months...

so i am very grateful for the whole experience...grateful it only cost me $5 to learn this quick intensive lesson on "being duped" and that this time the major difference for me is that i am not taking it personally...they dupe. period...it is a fact. they are clever, they are sincere, they are creative they are very giving, and they are out to make some money.

these villas are not for sale, we "snuck in" to see them while their owners are abroad, his friends are the caretakers of the places, and the bottom line is to get me to put a down payment on some land and that he will be the contractor etc....that is his plan.

mine is to continue enjoying myself here leisurely and happily on the beach...with nothing to think about....no major decisions, no money issues, no agenda, just enjoying discovering what makes this country tick, and what makes these people tick...and i am grateful to the owners of my resort, who told me flat out: there is not a single balinese that i trust....(and they have lived in bali for years and know many people....)

so...grateful that my god is so sweet and so loving and so thoughtful and so compassionate that he gave me an intensive yesterday on "a bungalow by the sea in bali".

when the german woman that was here left the other day, and we were sitting together in the car talking, she said that she can trust her intuition whether someone is telling her the truth or not. and that once she met someone in switzerland and he asked to borrow 500 swiss francs for an hour and he would meet her back at the restaurant and return it...she sensed he was lying and decided to give it to him, just to see if her intuition is correct.. he never returned with the money and she was so happy, that now she has proof that she can trust her intuition! and that those 500 swiss francs were the best spent money she ever used!

i shared with her that for me it takes much longer, and that i see "signs" but always tell myself i must be wrong and to trust in spite of what is not feeling 100% true, that there must be something i just don't understand, and to have patience and compassion and acceptance for the unknown too....(having been duped twice last time i was here, and several times this trip too...) and here we go, with an intensive crash course on duping and then god waking me up in the middle of the night with the light of awareness...thank you! happy to have been a partner in this exercise of "trusting my intuition".