Friday, October 25, 2013

Together and Alone and Finding meaning




My day unfolds in a satisfying way for me. I am awoken by some force just in time to go to the marketplace . The dark sky at 4:30 feels safe and gives a sense of morning and not evening. The road is still quiet except for a few others walking to the market and some trucks now and then. I like the market at this hour…not too full of people, but full of fresh produce and fish and flowers. Shopping in the dark gives it a special feeling, as if hidden, in another world. After returning home and putting the purchases away it is just before the first light of dawn and the short walk through the forest to the sea  is like a passageway to the new day. All of the roosters, dogs, cows pigs and birds are singing out announcing the new day in joyful harmony.The shore is empty of people and perfect in its' natural state.  There I sit and enjoy the colors of the clouds, the sea, the rising sun and the fishing boats coming or going. Each morning the shore offers me different choices of seating  arrangements; sometimes on the sand, or on a big rock or on the leaves, or a tree trunk…depending on the tide from the night before. After meditating and doing qigong with the strong and full energy of this place I am ready to return home and start the day in the house. I have had 4-5 hours of my quiet time alone. I put the rice up to cook and sweep the house and take a shower. I cut a small part of banana leaf in order to prepare the 18 rice offerings that I will place around the surroundings in gratitude and recognition of the nourishment we receive each day in order to come closer to serving god.
Making the rounds throughout the house and on the grounds gives the alone time I need for giving attention and intention to each area that nourishes us; in the kitchen the fire, water, rice. In the bedrooms; a good nights sleep. In the clinic; the nourishment received by being a channel for healing others and supporting the family. In the living room the nourishment of our togetherness. Outside; the nourishment from the symbolic altar and the connection with a loving higher power.
Sitting down with fresh papaya from the neighbors' tree afterwards is a satisfying and pleasurable breakfast. Then whatever I have for the day; into the village to arrange or buy something, or help out with broom making, or preparing offering items…a time of handicrafts and creativity and peace.
 By now I am ready to prepare a hot meal of rice, tofu, and some vegetables along with nice spicy sambal. The food is delicious. I love it. The chili peppers, eggs, coconut oil, coconut, and some of the spices, comes straight from the garden. It takes a few minutes to stir fry or steam the food and then I sit out on the porch eating with my fingers the food in my bowl as I look out at the flowering trees, grass, and fruit trees that surround the house.
  By now the kids are around and it is time to play, laugh, have some fun either making mandalas on the floor on the porch, or playing with plastilina, or any other creative endeavors that arise. Their happiness and original ideas always surprise me. It is a pleasure to spend time with them. Slowly I am filling in the space of their mother who no longer lives with them. It is nothing I would be able to replace but in spite of limited verbal communication, our mutual love for each other nourishes all of us. It is a joy to spend time hoola hooping by the sea, walking through the forest, making snacks, collecting glass shards and shells, or whatever. Sometimes we even prepare the offerings together with them collecting the flowers from the garden and helping make the little banana leaf cups that are then filled with the flowers.  I love watching how they mimic their mother and father, as they have witnessed them doing these actions for years.
And then it is again time to sweep the house, take a shower (which is actually just pouring cold water from a big plastic cup onto me in the tiled bathroom. So refreshing and simple. Then again making the rounds of the offerings to give thanks for a day lived in peace,, health and harmony.
Amen.

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