my payment

I just had a conversation with my friend who has just divorced his wife of 16 years because of her adultery. He is raising their three children alone. He explained to me that he believes this is payment for faults he committed in a "different season of his life" in a former incarnation, that were from the dark side of life. So now he must pay for that, and if he can remain calm and patient and grateful for what he has, and do his best, he may be able not to have to be reincarnated again, but will be One with God when he dies.

I am amazed how strict and disciplined he is and together with that very loving and caring. How is it that he doesn't feel like a victim working a whole day and then having to take care of children and a household alone? What does he do to find the strength to continue day after day?

"Time makes the difference. As the time passes it becomes easier. Now it is only 7 months since it happened that I came into our bedroom and saw her with another man. It is the mind that tries to play tricks on me and makes an endless movie again and again of that scene whenever I lay down to sleep. The emotions have calmed down already but the insomnia is difficult for all of this time. It is easier just to keep busy and water the garden or pet my dog, rather than lay in bed and be inundated with the painful mind. But I know that as time passes it becomes easier. And I try and just remember that I must take care of my children."

"if I am a "6" then if I look to one side of me there are people who are 5,4, 3, 2…so being a 6 is good for me. If I look to the other side maybe there are people with 7,8,9, 10 and then I feel not so good. So I try to be grateful that there are people that are worse off than me; physically and to realize how lucky I am that I am not so ugly, and my body is strong and healthy. And all I ever have to remember is that this is from another "season" of life that I don't remember, and that everything is just as it should be."